I dont want to be a liability
You just have to face the truth sometimes, ugly as it is. I know there?s a chance I may not play, a chance that I may not even be in the roster because of this Achilles. What am I going to do? I don?t know anything for sure. I don?t know what?s in Willie?s head anymore than I know exactly what?s going on inside my leg. I just know it hurts.
They wanted me to have another MRI on Monday. It was all set up. But I said, ?What for? All it?s gonna say is that I?m hurt, and I know that already.?
So here I am. I?d love to be out there. I?m swinging the bat pretty good right now. And I can help. But I know a ball in the gap could be a problem. I?m pretty sure Willie knows that, too. He saw me in the outfield yesterday during our workout. If this was the World Series already, we wouldn?t be talking about this. I think I?d be the DH, cause it doesn?t affect me at all when I swing.
So I wouldn?t be stealing bases, I?d just have to rely on power and hit a few out so I could trot. You know if that ball Greenie hit Saturday in LA goes out, I could have just walked home
and nothing happens to this Achilles. Three or four inches higher, and I?m downshifting.
They told me Todd Zeile hit a ball like that ?- like Greenie did — in the World Series, against the Yankees in 2000. It almost went out. It goes out, and the Mets get two runs. But it stayed in, and that Timo Perez got thrown out at the plate. Jeter made that great relay.
See, I?m kinda worried about that, too — that I might not score when I should because of this thing. I?m not afraid of the pain. I?ve been hurting in both legs ?- off and on -? for a long time. The right one?s better now. But I?ve got to be able to do my job in the outfield and on the bases. As much as I want to play and help us win, I wouldn?t want to be the reason we lose -? because I can?t run.
I?ve told Willie that.
So yeah, I know I may be out of there. But I?ll be there rooting. These are my boys. D. Wright, I have to be there for him, help him get through all this. I know he wants to say he?s outgrown me, that he doesn?t need Cliffie. I don?t make him carry my bags anymore, but he?s still my little guy. Bad leg or not, I gotta look after my little guy.
So I?ll be there one way or the other.